So often, we all try to gloss over the tough stuff in our posts to make us all smile. I'm not going to do that today.
I'm discouraged about Shyla. We had one day last week when I saw the true Shyla shine through. Since then, she's been off - a bit clumsy and very tired. My athletic young dog seems as if she's aged years since starting phenobarbital to control her epilepsy.
We're now on Day 23 of phenobarbital, and my vet told me that most dogs are back to 100% by about Day 15. I feel scared that Shyla will never get back her old flair and flat-out amazing athleticism. I hate epilepsy, and I hate phenobarbital.
We will wait this out, as patiently as we can, hoping that Shyla gets back to normal. I hope that we never have to make a decision about whether to accept this new level of function as "normal" for the sake of controlling her epilepsy.
This is the girl who I want back. She used to love to run long distances, leap high logs, and play like a puppy. I want that back again!