I spent last evening with family. While the boys launched rockets from a snow-covered part of the meadow, I saw a beautiful sunset "magic hour" unfold to our east.
My migraine went wild last night, and I lay there thinking about how to best approach this new hurdle in life. I think that perhaps, while I keep trying to get answers from doctors, I should start to accept them as a part of my life.
I am taking a page from my history with this approach. When I first had terrible spine pain, I obsessed over it, worrying incessantly about the pain. It wasn't until I accepted that the pain was going to be part of my life that I started to heal emotionally and find happiness again.
Perhaps that lesson from my past would help me now - help me to stand strong and vibrant, even though these evil things seem to have become a regular part of my life.
There's always a chance that they will dissipate or that a doctor will find a cure. One of you kindly sent me a link to a forum where many people reported going through an extremely tough time with migraines after being under general anaesthesia. I've pursued it further, and my reading suggests that it happens more often than I knew. Moreover, most people emerge from the fog with time.
Springtime is around the corner - a time for new beginnings. On my outdoor bike ride today, I saw two willows that had begun to grow catkins.
I also saw bluebirds and red-winged blackbirds, avian species that only live here in the spring and summer! My spirits were buoyed by the thought of the new life that spring will bring.
i need to send more of my red-winged pals to you. they're eating a lot of seed these couple of weeks. :)
ReplyDeletei hope your migraines will alleviate after a while if they were a biproduct of the anesthetic. how awful.
Your attitude is so inspiring!
ReplyDeleteNola
Migraines are no fun. I hope they go away soon. It seems that our spring is so far off for us. Thanks for sharing your beautiful photos.
ReplyDeleteCindy
I agree with Nola. You have such an inspiring attitude and put such a positive spirit into the world. Sending you all my best wishes for relief.
ReplyDeleteI do hope you don't have to adapt to frequent migraines. Lovely photographs. Spring might actually come around.
ReplyDeleteI sure hope the pain lessens soon and we are all thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteYes, I know that in my heart & soul too, KB... that, given time, everything remedies itself. As the old saying goes: leave a cold alone & it goes away in a week---treat a cold with medicine & it goes away in 7 days. :)
ReplyDeleteI had an arthroscopy on this same left knee 16 years, almost to the day, before I had the 2nd scope on it. The first time around my dr (a different one) didn't prescribe anti-inflamatories or physical therapy. The knee stayed twice the size as the other one for 4 months, with much pain & "weird feelings" in the joint... and then the swelling went down & the knee was fine. Now I'm taking Rx-strength Aleve & doing physical therapy & am at the 9-weeks post-op point... and there's a bit of difference but not much. I'm guessing at around 16-weeks post-op my knee will start to feel better once again, same as last time.
It's just the putting up with the recovery time that is hard to bear... and dealing with your migraines until they decide to go away has to be a very heavy cross to bear. I used to get migraines years ago & they're hard to describe if you've never had one. The pain is like nothing else. To put up with that on a daily basis would be difficult to imagine. But you are doing it with the positivity of a saint, my dear, and I know the beautiful soulful eyes of your furry family members helps you to do just that.
I am praying for you, KB, and my thoughts turn to you often during the day. I hope that brings you at least a little comfort.
~Andrea
XOXOXOXO
Beautiful photos. I hate that you are in pain. While acceptance is important, so is relief. I hope you find some.
ReplyDeleteThank you KB for sharing "the new life that you see".
ReplyDeleteWe see you reaching to accept what is happening,,,we will do the same.
We will never stop hoping that your migraines go away... our thoughts are constantly with you.
love
tweedles
Me and MOM pray that your acceptance will bring relief. Butt it is hard isn't dear friend? Our prayer is as Spring emerges so does healing for you.
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Goose
It sounds like you are facing this challenge in a positive, courageous way. I'm sure sunsets like the one you photographed provide nourishment to the spirit. I was thinking of you and your wildlife camera when I photographed a bear at my house the other day. Wrote about it today, check it out if you get a chance. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you are struggling so with migraines and I hope that your resolve to not let them interfere will help overcome them. Look at the face on Shayla and take solace there.
ReplyDeletePussy willow buds ( as we call them down here), beautiful skies, Shyla and R, and our huge international family, will be with you as the migraines continue. Ditto to all the other caring words above, and you are in my heart, as I hope for your troubles to dissipate so soon. Hugs, Jean.
ReplyDeleteYour photos are lovely, and you have a great attitude.
ReplyDeleteYou are strong to deal with your migraine. It must be very hard. I admire your will and do what you can with Shyla.
ReplyDeleteGreat Pictures.
M/
I'm terribly sorry you are having so many migraines and that you have to accept them as part of your life for now. That is not an easy thing to do. I can not begin to relate with that kind of pain, but I know how hard it is to accept a part of ourselves that seems out of order. When I come to this understanding, it diminishes the problem in half, but I know it isn't easy especially when you have no answers.
ReplyDeleteRegardless, I hope you find some peace with it. I will be thinking and praying for you.
We hope with time these migraines will be a thing of the past for you, KB. We can almost feel the softness of the willow! What a gorgeous photo!
ReplyDeleteLove ya lots♥
Mitch and Molly
Perhaps the social interaction affected you a bit last night :( I still have all the hope in the world that with quiet and rest and as your body heals your migraines will dissipate. All good thoughts coming your way from me and my 3-pack :)
ReplyDeleteI surely hope your migraines are just anesthesia based and as your body clears the toxins, they will dissipate.
ReplyDeleteAs you start to see signs of spring, we got hit with a half a foot of snow last night! LOL! Most winters we receive nothing but a dusting or two. Such a white winter we have had!
I felt incredibly better when I saw a few signs of Spring last week, too. I have my fingers crossed that things will get better for you soon!
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful and inspirational. I do hope one day you will publish a book of your gorgeous photos and inspirations. Happy St. Paddy's Day to you and may it be filled with Irish blessings and good wishes!
ReplyDeleteSpring will make you feel better, new growth, new life, a new start.
ReplyDeleteMom had a migraine Saturday and Sunday. The only thing that helps is Maxalt even though she hates taking medicines. Beautiful pictures as always
ReplyDeleteHappy St. Patrick's Day
Lily & Edward
I hope the migraine goes away for good. My mother battled them in her 20s and was hospitalized, so I understand how terrible they can be.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that you are having these migranes... I know that it must be horrible!!! Sending good thoughts your way!
ReplyDeleteCatkins! I see Shyla is also looking toward spring. More snow due her tonight - we'll ski tomorrow. I cannot imagine your migraine suffering. I do wonder if it has been caused by the anesthesia?
ReplyDeleteI sincerely hope the migraines will Go Away as you continue to heal. Maybe if you visualize getting rid of something that is a temporary annoyance...kind of like shaking off a little red boot? :)
ReplyDeleteTake it easy, KB.
Dear KB, I echo many of the sentiments and prayers here. Nothing we can say will help you with the pain but may our love and admiration of you bring you smiles.
ReplyDeleteGentle hugs,
Noreen